I just finished my second to last undergraduate spring semester (YES, you read that right-I'm finally graduating next May!) and figured it was time to write my annual blog post. I do wish I made more time to use this thing, so I'm hoping this summer will be the one I finally commit! While thinking about the things I've felt and the things I've done so far this year, I realized that, apparently, all I've done was cry? I don't think I would've made it to #19 without all the tears though, so I'll take it.
Buzzed my head and then subsequently rolled my eyes into another dimension due to being constantly told things like "Don't worry, you're still gorgeous," "You're so brave," "I love your haircut! But you have the face to pull it off".
Faced another situational depressive episode and took myself back to weekly therapy.
Tried to find some clarity in my thoughts by meditating every day for an entire month.
- Finished six books. Currently on my bedside table: The Body Is Not An Apology, Rebellious Mourning, Buffering: Unshared Tales of a Life Fully Loaded, and A Field Guide To Getting Lost. (Haven't really mastered last year's goal of finishing more books than I start.)
Attended and participated at a social justice institute. And then proceeded to cry in front of a total stranger during an activity where we had to talk for three minutes answering the question "How is your day?". It was here that I started to understand how to truly listen to understand, rather than to respond.
Found a new weightlifting coach, thought about some summer goals, but promised myself I would only do what felt right for my body.
Made a financial plan to get out of debt and stop living paycheck to paycheck (with the help of my sister). "Financial freedom is self-care." - Roe
- Wrote down a plan for graduation and felt excitement and pride in the light at the end of the (very long) tunnel. Y'all better be crying with me on my graduation day next year.
Started cooking and bringing my own food to work and school.
Turned off all the notifications on my phone and then promptly let out a sigh of relief. Seriously, try this.
Decided to create a list of New Year's intentions rather than attach myself to goals that could potentially become more stressful than rewarding. My favorite? Take more ass pics. My newest intention: attempt to make at least SOME time for myself every day.
- Got new glasses. Hellllllo, I'm adorable!
Minimized my wardrobe and got rid of any clothes that didn't immediately make me feel good.
Went to see Black Panther and A Wrinkle In Time twice. Y’all.
(Bonus) Found my way back to myself.
Thanks for reading my yearly blog post and take care, y'all 🤣